Lady Gay-Ga

"Di ako bakla, kla kla kla kla kla. Babae po ako". I am usually called babaeng bakla because of the way I speak. What can I do? Miss Friendship akey sa mga vaklers?

I remember when I first learned my very first gay lingo word which was dakota nota. I think I had a crush at someone at the office at that time and then they were talking in gay lingo which I cannot really understand. When I asked about the meaning of the easiest term that I could understand, which was dakota nota, they laughed and told me that the meaning is "you're nice". Then I used that term to a guy I had a little crush on and the guy asked me "do you want to touch it?". I was really surprised with the way he replied because I only meant to say that he's nice. I narrated this story to my gay friends and they were laughing so hard....

Hmm, it's only now I realized that since he understood it, therefore he's gay? Maybe! Haha.

I Thought That My Brain Got Stuck With Ideas, Thanks to Couch Surfing!

Being a freelance writer is not easy especially when you write different topics that are needed by your clients. Just a few days ago, I was experiencing the most common dilemma of a writer, having the writer's block.

What's writer's block?

According to Wikipedia, this is a condition associated with writing as a profession, in which the author loses the ability to produce new work.

There are different factors which affect the writer seem not to produce anything new as the deadline approaches. In my case, I guess it's because I was experiencing uneasiness due to my painful menstruation and pressure from my client.

Good thing is that my friend, Vanessa, was talking about couch surfing a week ago. It was something new to me thus I proposed to my client to write about this new and sensational topic since I was writing for her Travel Blog. I discussed on the pros and cons of doing this. I got to incorporate the things I learned from my very preachy OBGYN a few days ago. Thanks to my girl friend Vanessa for shedding some light about this! :)

So there, my temporary writer's block is solved and I assume that this is not the end of the rope. Freelance writing is allowing yourself to be exposed in different kinds of topics with no hesitations. All you have to do is be open minded and the ideas will be free flowing.

Inflicting Pain with Chick Flicks

I love watching chick flicks. I was pondering the other day why I am so fond of watching chick flicks or romantic comedies. Is it because I'm a chick? Well, I can't speak in behalf of all the ladies who just love see adorable and cute boys in chick flicks but I guess this is a way for us to imagine (and see) the ideal men that we really want to have and can never (ever) have in real life. These are what us hopeless romantics want. We all want romance; we want a guy to sweep us off our feet.

Just recently, I had a chick flick marathon alone and watched all my favorite movies such as Sleepless in Seattle, The Notebook, The Lake House and Never Been Kissed.

When I thought that I was having the time of my life falling in love again with those movies, I realized that it only made me think of Jeff again. (sigh) This is my first time that I'll be divulging this little secret of mine that I have been keeping inside. Ok, here goes. Jeff is or was my object of affection during Junior College (right before I met Tom). If you're going to ask me if he's an ex-boyfriend, hmmm NO. We used to date for quite some time then suddenly he dropped me like a hot potato. He never communicated to me after our last romantic date we had then. I never knew why he left me.

Years after our "break up", I met my wonderful boyfriend Tom. I thought I'm already over Jeff but there are times when all those good memories keep on recurring in my head. I still feel the pain that he had inflicted on me and I feel that I'm still in love with him. Our "relationship" then was short lived. I am was still hoping that probably someday, he'll come back.

Why do I do this to myself? I know I'm already with Tom but why am I still obsessing over Jeff? Whenever I watch those chick flicks, I wanted myself to think that the ideal, perfect men there is Tom but I imagine Jeff.

I got an LDR not an SLR

I have a boyfriend named Tom who lives in Canada. We were already in a relationship before he moved to Canada. He's been there for about 2 years now because he's an immigrant but we've been together (on and off) for the last 4 years. For 2 years, I have longed for his passionate kisses and the warmth of his embrace. How I wish he's just here so that whenever I need him, he can always come. For 2 years, we are already included in the couples who are into this so-called LDR (Long Distance Relationships).

There is a notion that long distance relationships are hard to maintain. I disagree on this because all it takes is that the couple should just have constant communication. Plain chat through YM is boring so, Tom and I Skype each other. As much as possible, we make it a point to make our skyping moments special. We have video dates wherein we have candlelight dinners and celebrate our monthsaries.

There are moments that we want to express our affection with each other more than the sweet nothings. We sometimes go crazy and have live cybersex. Tom gets turned on whenever I wear the pink-laced lingerie that he gave me for our last anniversary. When he sees that I am wearing that, it means that I am in the mood for some hot cyber-loving. I know that some people would perceive this as a taboo but this is one way that we can express our passionate love for each other. I was born and raised as a Catholic but I am open-minded.

So for those of you who are currently in this kind of relationship, don't lose hope. My boyfriend and I get along very well even though he's so far away. What's important is that both of you trust each other and keep the lines (and even internet lines) always open.

My New Baby: Canon S90

Tom is so sweet, he sent me a Canon S90 as a gift and shipped it from Canada! He knows I really love cameras and travelling. Because of this, I recently went to Carabao Island in Romblon. This is a very virgin island where commercialization does not exist yet. The sand is much more finer than Boracay. I immediately fell in love with its pristine waters and the very friendly people. How I wish Tom was here to witness this with me, most especially watching the beautiful sunset.

Anyway, the camera was super awesome! This is the newest point and shoot camera released by Canon. I have been raving this to Tom while we were having our usual conversations over the net. You know why I was raving about this? Well, here are some of the specs that I really like:

• 10 megapixels
• wide angle 3.8x optical zoom
• f/2.0 lens which is good for low light conditions
• maximum ISO setting of 3200

I'm really so happy that Tom bought me this camera. I hope that when he comes back here in Manila, we can use it and have our camwhoring moments with it.