Making Up and Breaking Up In the Past

My close friends know that Tom and I frequently break up and make up. When he was in Canada, we always chat and do crazy stuff in the internet (ahem, like cybersex :) ). We enjoy talking anything and everything under the sun. Even though we were so far away, we still fight and even break up. Last time we broke up was when he was still in Canada because he's "nagpapapampam". I became frustrated of him being so needy so I broke up with him. I guess I was having my monthly visitor then so I acted impulsively. I don't know why I did it but probably because I know that he'll come back to me. That's how we've always been.

Usually, as a revenge, I go out and hook up with other guys. Because I was so angry at him, I logged on to my favorite porn chatroom (nope, I won't tell. It might be your favorite too!) and chatted with this hot guy. Well, I don't know really if he's a real hottie but only based my perception on the photo he sent me. Of course, the photo was ahem, kita ang kanyang baktidol. (BAKat TI**) LOL. So we decided to meet, looks juicy naman. My girlfriends don't know this, but now they know. After a few exchanges of dirty talk, we decided to get it on. Hmm, I won't tell the juicy details anymore. I guess my girlfriends who are reading this are super anxious to know what happened. ;) Well, nothing really happened. The punchline of this story is that this hot guy turned out to be a super doll collector. I suddenly thought that he was gay but apparently, he just likes to collect dolls. We only made out and got turned off when I saw his dollie collection. But in fairness, the dolls were cute! Wanted to take home sana pero I guess he'll just make away me.

As mentioned, this isn't the first time that I did this. I've done this the whole duration of my relationship with Tom. I wonder if this is something that I really want in the future. Is he the right one for me? Or am I just staying in this relationship because it's part of my daily routine? As the saying (and the song goes), love is a battlefield but what if you're always in battling with your partner? Now that he's here in Manila, we're ok but I don't know for how long...